I Cleaned the Bathroom Today

I didn’t even plan on it, but I needed the small victory. Needed the victory of completion—the satisfaction of conquering something.

I’ve lately been overwhelmed with some aspects of my life. And disappointed by some, too. I find myself scrambling to correct course, sometimes overcompensating in my efforts. I really wish I knew the answer to all the whys and the for how longs. It would help to reduce the misguided attention and overspent energy.

I bet you’re curious about what has me bound. What’s trying to strangle my joy and seep poison into the depths of my self-worth. But this isn’t about me, really.

I know it’s rough out there. There’s an undercurrent of political tension. Economic strain is wreaking havoc on households. Relationships seem harder to cultivate and prosper. And you’re supposed to hold it together like nothing is challenging your sanity. Like nothing is trying to strangle your joy or seep poison into the depths of your self-worth.

You’re approaching the new school year unable to fulfill your child's supply list or terrified their safety and wellbeing will be at risk. You’re homeschooling your child and doubt you’re capable of efficiently cultivating their development or worried you’ll fail them.

Instead of frantically searching for the whys or the for how longs, can you pause for just a moment? To remember who you are to the people who love you? To remember those who are grateful for the breath in your lungs?

Sometimes, we forget all we ARE when we focus too much on what we do (or can’t do) and what we have (or don’t have).

When I let myself forget, darkness settles over my outlook. It dampens my excitement for all that tomorrow can bring. It contests the truth I know about me and who I am in Him.

You may be longing for a victory, but don’t fall into the trap of forgetting your value.